tryin 2 find a reason 2 live

what a week i found dat my sister died in hospital on monday last week an then on friday i ave sum randoms break in to my house an beat the livin sh@t out of me i now ave a nice cut on me head an 3 hairline fractures in me jaw as well as brain damage i cant c out of me rite eye yay there plan was 2 kill me but here i am alive next time instead of leavein me in imence pain dat i an in actually kill me next time atm i wish they did the job properly cause i am sick an tired of all the sh@t happenin 2 me i just give up on life all 2 gether

hey well on march 20th 2009 i found out that my son an X-GF died from the victorian bush fires this makes the 4th time dat i have had ppl i luv an cherish die

nowa days i wake up an wonder y r they diein an not me y is it i ave 2 suffer slowly an painfull as i go on wif my lyf with pp diein around me i am confused an dont kno what 2 do any more

i just hope dat i will pull through this an not do any thin stupid

hey dont u hate it wen u think u find the luv of ur life u r goin 2 get married an live a good lyf things r lookin up an gettin better and then u find out dat the girl u luv doesnt want u ao lyk u she is usin u just 2 get a kid then breaks ur heatr cheats on u in front of u knowin u r there an havin 2 put up with it

well that happened 2 me now days i hate her an i relise dat i dont need her i an happyer then b 4 wif out her an tryin 2 live lyf 2 its fullest

y y cant i b accepted

every day i go though hell

no one accepts me for who i am

they are always rejecting me because i am emo am cause i am bi

and cause i got cuts on my wrist

i donno y they dont ignore that

i am like a normal person but just emo

there are times were i could just die and well i feel this why for all my life

there is only 1 person who accepts me an that is stevie my GF

she is my one and only love an always will be

so until i am accepted for who i am by everyone i will continue to be who i am

you asked me

what was wrong

and i said nothing

and then i turned around

and said evertinhg

tears will help you learn and grow

so you better off to let them flow

iwish i saved

all the tears

you made me cry

so i can fuchin drown you in them

you say you love me

and i say i love you to

but then you go an hurt me

and say we will never be true

i hate you with all my anger

but i love you with all my heart

youmake me want to throw up whenever you are aroud

but i wish i was with you every single day

love the way i hate you

but i hate the way i love you

so please help me

love you or hate you

i loved him and he loved me

he said we will always be together

and together we were ment to be

but then one day

some news came that was bad

for i was to move away

i told him and we were both sad

for we were to go our different way

we shared our last kiss

we shared our lastday

for he i shall miss

but together we will forever love

like 2 pretty white turtle doves

i loved him and he loved me

he said we will always be together

and together we were ment to be

but then one day

some news came that was bad

for i was to move away

i told him and we were both sad

for we were to go our different way

we shared our last kiss

we shared our lastday

for he i shall miss

but together we will forever love

like 2 pretty white turtle doves

i loved him and he loved me

he said we will always be together

and together we were ment to be

but then one day

some news came that was bad

for i was to move away

i told him and we were both sad

for we were to go our different way

we shared our last kiss

we shared our lastday

for he i shall miss

but together we will forever love

like 2 pretty white turtle doves